Junky

I am one chemically-dependent woman. What a night last night.

No, I didn't smoke any tobacco. That part was easy. I started kind of craving cigarettes around 10:30 or so, but by then it was time to go to sleep anyway, so it didn't really matter. Other than that I didn't really want to grab a smoke at all. I just felt weird.

The tremors continued to come and go. They followed me to bed too, which meant that I twitched and tossed all night. Funny dreams too, thoguh I don't remember any of them very well. There were also lots of cold sweats.

A bunch of weird emotional shit kept coming up all night. Strange insights about people and situations kept arising, sometimes waking me up. I feel a lot less moody this morning than I did yesterday. That's good.

So, having withdrawals, but not really wanting any cigarettes. Can't say I've ever had this kind of result with quitting before, not even as early as day 2.

I am also thirsty beyond my ability to describe it to you. There is not enuogh water in this world.